Summer is weird to me. In theory, it seems like it should be the best season of the year. Warm weather, outdoor fun, a more relaxed schedule...What's not to love? But since entering adulthood, Summer and I have had a love/hate relationship. I don't know what it is, but my mood seems to dive with Memorial Day and doesn't bounce back until after Labor Day. Maybe it's the lack of routine. Or too many daylight hours. Or the fact that I've usually had to work in an office indoors all day while my heart is in the summers of my childhood, where there are endless hours to play outdoors and dream. Whatever the case, I've found that my Summer Blues are much improved when I have something to look forward to.
Enter the Sabelhaus Summer Project!
This summer, a bunch of things have come together to give me a much anticipated summer. First, my children are big enough to make outings about 50 billion times more enjoyable than they were a few years ago. I am unemployed for the moment, making me a full-time at home Momma with very little scheduled this summer. And if we stretch our dollars, we can afford a little bit of extra gas for local trips and treats. So, my brain has been churning away, excited to make this a summer I can enjoy with my kids. I truly want them to experience some new things...learn through fun...pick up some values along the way...and most of all, NOT BE BRAINLESSLY BORED. Believe me, I am so very OK with some daily TV time, game time, and general chill time. But when I don't set up some kind of structure, we seem to digress into endless video games and TV...and well, Facebook for me...
So. Ahem. I made a list of things we can do this summer. Included are some general guidelines to the day that will help them earn their weekly allowance. Most of the activities are cheap, free, or use items we already have. When I share the list with my kids, they will also know how much it costs. If they really, really want to do something that's a little out of the budget that week, I may ask them to chip in. (Right now they have more cash on hand than I do, so I don't think it's a bad deal. Financial literacy and all.) The places mentioned are mostly local to Terre Haute, Indiana, and I've tried to include a website for reference. If you live somewhere else, perhaps they will serve as a starting point if you're looking for some new things to try this summer. I got a few of my items from other people's summer lists, so feel free to borrow! When I started writing them all down, however, I was pleasantly surprised about the number of things there are to do around here with kids. Goooo Haute! These activities are also geared toward kids preschool to mid-elementary school age. I'm guessing my almost five year old probably won't relish every moment at the history museum, and my nine year old might roll her eyes and opt out of story time at the library to read her own big kid stuff...but hey, we're a family, and sometimes you must make compromises to accomplish the goals of the team. I plan to ask my husband and the kids if they have any other ideas and we'll see if we can do some of those, too. Hopefully, I'll have an update or two to share with you as the summer goes along. I don't always do parenting type stuff on here, but this list seemed pretty natural to share. So before I babble on incessantly, I give you....
"I'm Bored" Is Not Allowed:
Week day summer rule- Before you may play computer, Wii, or watch TV, the following must be completed:
1. Straighten your bed.
2. Get dressed and brush hair/teeth.
3. Eat breakfast.
4. Read a book, write, or do something math related for 30 minutes.
5. Complete any other chores Mom assigns you for the day.
6. Like the rest of the year, you are still responsible for having a clean room, taking all dirty laundry to the laundry room by Saturday, feeding pets, and washing the basement bathroom sink.
When chores are done for the day, here are some things we can choose to do this summer! Maybe you can think of some ideas to add! Let's see how many we can mark off the list, and let's not be borrrrrrred.
1. Visit the library. Get books, do the summer reading program,and go to library events. (Story time every Wednesday at 10 am.) http://www.vigo.lib.in.us/yp/summer Cost: FREE!
2. Go to the Terre Haute Children's Museum!
http://thchildrensmuseum.com/ Cost: FREE for members- that's us!
3. Visit the Nature Center and Native American Museum at Dobbs Park.
http://www.terrehaute.in.gov/departments/parks/city-parks/dobbs Cost: FREE!
4. Go swimming! How many places can we swim? We could try...Hawthorn Park, Fowler Park, Sullivan Lake, Shakamak State Park, Lieber State Park, Deming Park...
Cost: FREE to a few bucks/person
5. Make up a Lip Sync Dance. Choose a song. Make up a dance to it and pretend to sing the words. Mom will video tape it so we can giggle later. Cost: FREE!
6. See a movie! Meadows Theater Free Kids' Summer Movies are on Tues, Wed, and Thurs at 10 am Cost: FREE! (Well, maybe we'll get some snacks, too.)
Or, we can convince Daddy to take us to the Drive-in Movie Theater! http://starlitebloomington.com/
Cost: $24 for our family plus the cost of giant pickles or other concession goodies.
7. Pick strawberries or blueberries. Yum! Cost: Depends on price of berries and how long we last...
8. Visit a Farmer's Market and buy some fresh yummy produce. (Saturday mornings)
Cost: Depends on how hungry we get looking at all that food. http://www.downtownterrehautefarmersmarket.com/
9. Go for a hike. But which State Park or Rec Area to choose? There's one less than an hour away in every direction!
Cost: $5/car for an Indiana State Park. Illinois Parks are FREE.
10. Ride our bikes on the Heritage Trail.
http://www.traillink.com/trail/national-road-heritage-trail-(terre-haute)
Cost: You guessed it, FREE! But Mom will have to figure out how to get all the bikes on/in the car...
11. Listen to an outdoor concert in the park! (Usually Saturday evenings)
http://terrehautecommunityband.org/thcb.html Cost: FREE
12. Read a chapter book out loud together before bed. :) Cost: FREE
13. Make something to feed the squirrels and birds.
Cost: Recycle things to make it, plus the cost of bird seed.
14. Plant something and watch it grow. Cost: Soil and seeds.
15. Visit Ryves Youth Center and play with other kids. Maybe we can think of a project or games to bring or join in with their fun stuff?
Cost: FREE! http://www.archindy.org/cc/ryves/
16. Visit the Bouncin' Barn and jump until we're silly!
http://thebouncinbarn.weebly.com/ Cost: $5/kid Mon-Thurs
17. Learn piano or play music games on the computer.
Cost: FREE thanks to Mom and Dad and the joys of the Internet(which is not free)!
18. Set up a recycling bin and visit the recycling center so we can start using our resources more wisely!
http://www.indstate.edu/facilities/recycle/ Cost: FREE
19. Go bowling. Cost: $2.75/kid for shoe rental plus whatever Mom has to pay because let's face it, she'll be bowling like there's no tomorrow!
https://www.kidsbowlfree.com/center.php?alley_id=1421
20. See some alpacas! And probably some nuns!
http://spsmw.org/white-violet-farm-alpacas/ Cost: FREE, I think?
21. See some cool art at the Swope Art Museum.
http://www.swope.org/visit-us/ Cost: FREE!
22. See some cool history at the Vigo County Historical Society.
http://www.vchs.co/ Cost: FREE!
23. Go roller skating.
Cost: Wednesday Family Night, $1.00 entrance and $2.00 skate rentals, so $15 for the family
http://www.skateworldin.com/TerreHaute/
24. Go to Bogey's Family Fun Center.
Cost: Mom and Dad will get you some tokens, but you can bring allowance money to play extra games. http://www.bogeybear.net/
25. Paint a masterpiece or create your own art project. (Let's get out all the craft stuff and make something. I think there's even a leather punch set somewhere...) Cost: FREE
26. Build a fort in the basement. Play the Imagination Game. Cost: FREE
27. Cook dinner for Daddy. You can help me shop and figure out what to make. Cost: Whatever the food costs, but I'm guessing we won't be having lobster.
28. Act out Bible stories. Be sure and put together costumes! Cost: FREE
29. Go to the Dollar Store and find something awesome for a dollar! Cost: $1/kid= $3(plus tax)
30. Make sidewalk chalk paint and paint the sidewalk. Cost: Couple $$ for chalk
31. Invite a friend over to play or do things with our Parents of Young Kids group from church!
Cost: Usually FREE
32. Visit a playground or park we've never been to before. Make up a nature scavenger hunt to do while we're there. Cost: FREE
33. Learn the rules a sport or game we've never played before and try it out. Cost: FREE
34. Three words: water balloon fight. Cost: We'll get the good balloons that cost more than a dollar.
35. Have a camp out in the backyard (or Uncle David's backyard). Make s'mores.
Cost: Our backyard, FREE. S'mores, a few dollars. Travel to Michigan, that may get more pricey.
Wednesday, May 29, 2013
Wednesday, May 22, 2013
A Voice to Create
My daughter was in first grade when her teacher came to me at a school function and said, "I just love seeing what she writes. She already has a voice!"
That's probably one of the best compliments I could get about one of my children. Even at the young ages of 9, 7, and 59 days until 5 (He keeps me informed of the birthday countdown), my kids desire to express their unique take on the world as they know it. They want to create their own stories. They sing their own songs. They like starting with a blank piece of paper and turning into a masterpiece of their choosing. They constantly play what they call the G-A-M-E (Imagination only, no toys required). They love to create and they are finding their unique voice.
Not surprising, considering their parents tend to walk on the creative side of life. If my husband and I aren't creating something, we tend to lose our joy. Yeah, I would be that person at work who would have an idea and actually go and ask my boss for permission to make it happen. Usually resulting in a lot more work than I intended, but I love seeing an idea come into reality. When I spent a semester in Spain in college, I paid the bouncy little man who owned the music shop a nominal fee just to play his piano in the back room for 30 minutes. No lessons, no books- just played and sang my heart out. I'm pretty sure he thought I was nuts, but I'm sure he considered all Americans nuts... My dear husband really can't NOT have a couple projects going at any given time. Right now there's an almost finished 5' x 9' utility trailer in our garage that he made from scratch. Why? Because he wanted one and knew he could figure it out. (And making it yourself is always cheaper.) Sometimes we just have to have a home jam session. Although, that's a bit difficult with three small children afoot.
So yes, we are a family of creators. Frank and I met serving on a campus ministry worship team, and we've been serving as part of a worship team somewhere ever since. I feel a kind of kinship to the Levites appointed by David in the Bible whose job it was to make joyful sounds(I Chronicles 15). Because that's what we do! And also like David in the Psalms, nothing brings me through the tough times like putting my focus on God and worshipping through music. Or writing. Or making something hideous in play-dough with my kids. Something about creating sooths the soul and brings life.
I believe that every human is made in the image of God, and part of that is God as Creator. So in turn...people are creators. We can't help but create. It's who we are! I think there's many people that suppress this in their adult life, rationalizing that whatever they create isn't worthy of a museum and not worth their time. But whether it's a yummy meal or a beautifully landscaped yard or the perfect spreadsheet solution to a workplace conundrum or making a craft with friends or building a trailer or building a relationship with another human being, we create. In those creations there is a unique voice to be shared, a single facet among the billion facets of our Creator. And how I long to be a joyful sound reflecting just a tiny, tiny bit of my Creator's beauty in my creations.
One of my blog friends, Matt Appling, is an art teacher who wrote a whole book on this very thing...(Go visit him! http://mattappling.com/) In Life After Art, he describes what happens as we leave the art room as a child, and how our desire to create beauty fades. For me, this desire never really went away. I must create. I simply must. But...this passage grabbed a hold of me and didn't let go:
The Son is the image of the invisible God, the firstborn over all creation. For in him all things were created: things in heaven and on earth, visible and invisible, whether thrones or powers or rulers or authorities; all things have been created through him and for him. He is before all things, and in him all things hold together. (Colossians 1:15-17)
That, however, is not the way of life you learned when you heard about Christ and were taught in him in accordance with the truth that is in Jesus. You were taught, with regard to your former way of life, to put off your old self, which is being corrupted by its deceitful desires; to be made new in the attitude of your minds; and to put on the new self, created to be like God in true righteousness and holiness. (Ephesians 4:20-24)
That's probably one of the best compliments I could get about one of my children. Even at the young ages of 9, 7, and 59 days until 5 (He keeps me informed of the birthday countdown), my kids desire to express their unique take on the world as they know it. They want to create their own stories. They sing their own songs. They like starting with a blank piece of paper and turning into a masterpiece of their choosing. They constantly play what they call the G-A-M-E (Imagination only, no toys required). They love to create and they are finding their unique voice.
Not surprising, considering their parents tend to walk on the creative side of life. If my husband and I aren't creating something, we tend to lose our joy. Yeah, I would be that person at work who would have an idea and actually go and ask my boss for permission to make it happen. Usually resulting in a lot more work than I intended, but I love seeing an idea come into reality. When I spent a semester in Spain in college, I paid the bouncy little man who owned the music shop a nominal fee just to play his piano in the back room for 30 minutes. No lessons, no books- just played and sang my heart out. I'm pretty sure he thought I was nuts, but I'm sure he considered all Americans nuts... My dear husband really can't NOT have a couple projects going at any given time. Right now there's an almost finished 5' x 9' utility trailer in our garage that he made from scratch. Why? Because he wanted one and knew he could figure it out. (And making it yourself is always cheaper.) Sometimes we just have to have a home jam session. Although, that's a bit difficult with three small children afoot.
So yes, we are a family of creators. Frank and I met serving on a campus ministry worship team, and we've been serving as part of a worship team somewhere ever since. I feel a kind of kinship to the Levites appointed by David in the Bible whose job it was to make joyful sounds(I Chronicles 15). Because that's what we do! And also like David in the Psalms, nothing brings me through the tough times like putting my focus on God and worshipping through music. Or writing. Or making something hideous in play-dough with my kids. Something about creating sooths the soul and brings life.
I believe that every human is made in the image of God, and part of that is God as Creator. So in turn...people are creators. We can't help but create. It's who we are! I think there's many people that suppress this in their adult life, rationalizing that whatever they create isn't worthy of a museum and not worth their time. But whether it's a yummy meal or a beautifully landscaped yard or the perfect spreadsheet solution to a workplace conundrum or making a craft with friends or building a trailer or building a relationship with another human being, we create. In those creations there is a unique voice to be shared, a single facet among the billion facets of our Creator. And how I long to be a joyful sound reflecting just a tiny, tiny bit of my Creator's beauty in my creations.
One of my blog friends, Matt Appling, is an art teacher who wrote a whole book on this very thing...(Go visit him! http://mattappling.com/) In Life After Art, he describes what happens as we leave the art room as a child, and how our desire to create beauty fades. For me, this desire never really went away. I must create. I simply must. But...this passage grabbed a hold of me and didn't let go:
"It was exceedingly easier for mankind to fall than it was for God to redeem His beloved and fragile creation from sin.
When resolving to create beauty in the world, remember this: beauty is fragile. It is precious. It takes a lot more work to create beauty than it does to destroy it. Creating beauty will be meaningful but difficult work. This is not the place for laziness or fearfulness. And all along the way, ugliness will be crouching at your door, waiting to steal it from you."So...what are you creating? What does your creative voice say? Is it intentional or not? Is it beautiful? Is it ugly? Is laziness or fear keeping you from creating? How is your Creator is reflected in your creations?
He who forms the mountains,
who creates the wind,
and who reveals his thoughts to mankind,
who turns dawn to darkness,
and treads on the heights of the earth—
the Lord God Almighty is his name. (Amos 4:13)
The Son is the image of the invisible God, the firstborn over all creation. For in him all things were created: things in heaven and on earth, visible and invisible, whether thrones or powers or rulers or authorities; all things have been created through him and for him. He is before all things, and in him all things hold together. (Colossians 1:15-17)
That, however, is not the way of life you learned when you heard about Christ and were taught in him in accordance with the truth that is in Jesus. You were taught, with regard to your former way of life, to put off your old self, which is being corrupted by its deceitful desires; to be made new in the attitude of your minds; and to put on the new self, created to be like God in true righteousness and holiness. (Ephesians 4:20-24)
Tuesday, May 7, 2013
10 Parenting Lessons I Stole from My Mom
Usually stealing is bad. (You hear that, kids? BAD! Even taking that dime from my purse! Yeah, you think I didn't see that, did you?) But these are ten things that my Mom did so well as a parent that I'm stealing them and using them with my own brood. Don't worry, Mom. This isn't your only present! It goes in the mail tomorrow... :)
1. Support and love their Dad.
I know that this may be a different ballgame if you are divorced or separated from the father of one or all of your kids. Same goes if you are remarried, single, or working through a difficult marriage issue. It puts more of a "support the dad as much as is healthy for everyone" spin on it. But if you are married to the father of your kids, let them hear good things about him come from your mouth. If you are verbally tearing down your husband in front of your kids when he's there (or not there), what kind of message does that send? If they don't see you welcome him home...give him hugs and kisses...you get the idea. I was outwardly mortified as a teenager when my parents would walk around our neighborhood in the evenings HOLDING. HANDS. Ug! But inwardly, I was so glad that our family and my parents' love was secure. And my mom would always do things like be the first line of defense on the phone when dad was on call for work, or support his hobbies like running or biking even when she'd had a long day and probably wanted to run away herself.
2. Let them see you in roles other than Mom.
When I was little, my Mom did not work outside the home. But as I got a little older, I saw her do things like host an after school Bible club at our house, do office work for my dad's medical office, work as the Worship Coordinator for our church, cover local events and write articles for local newspapers, and eventually she went back to school to finish her college degree. Seeing her as volunteer, employee, and student gave me insight that my mom was a valuable person even outside our home. I saw I had a lot of options for what I could do with my own future. As a mom, I have had seasons where I worked full time, part-time, and have stayed at home. All have had their unique challenges and rewards, and I have not felt that one was any "better" than the other. I hope that my daughter and my sons realize that God may give them different seasons of work outside the home and inside the home. Listening to His timing and providing for their families' needs the best way they can in that season is the more important thing.
3. Teach them independence intentionally.
My mom has always been a good teacher. She wanted to make sure that her children were prepared for life on their own. We had chores. Lots of chores. Every summer morning there was a list of chores for each of us on the kitchen table from cleaning toilets to cleaning our rooms to trimming those infernal bushes every summer. And the chores had to be done before Mom came home from work. Or else. When you began high school in our house, the laundering of your own clothes became your responsibility. Mom also taught us about money. Saving, tithing, spending. I had my own checking account at an early age. She taught us to cook as we helped to cook. Her babies would not enter the adult world without the skills to take care of themselves.
4. Reveal to them the joy of simple things.
Some of my favorite memories of childhood were picking violets and making dandelion chains...watching the clouds...taking walks...having a picnic...enjoying the free awesome stuff that God has given us. Yes, my kids like their TV time and video games...but we take a lot of time to enjoy the simple things, too.
5. Be an active participant in the things you do with your kids.
When we went to the pond every summer, Mom jumped in, too. She loves to swim. When we went to the roller rink, Mom skated- backwards! She loves to skate. We'd dance around the living room to the radio and Mom would join in and show us dances that she did as a kid. She likes her toes in the dirt on a warm day. And recently she braved the trampoline with my kids. She rarely was the mom that sat and watched her kids have fun. She was a part of the fun. Let me never be too grown up to join in the fun!
6. It's okay for moms to apologize to their children.
News flash: Moms make mistakes. I've made plenty. But I distinctly remember times that my Mom apologized to me. Usually when she lost her temper. She didn't release me from responsibility or punishment if I had done something wrong (also usually the case), but her apologies taught me that saying things in anger is not ok and that moms are, in fact, human.
7. Model a love of learning.
Being a nerdy family, there were always plenty of books around the house and trips to the library. There were family vacations where we took historical tours of Abraham Lincoln's past or explored Mammoth Caves. It is not unusual for both my parents to be found reading side by side. My siblings and I always did well in school, but our parents sparked in us a love of learning beyond the walls of formal education. We are all know-it-alls and we kind of love that. I am just thankful that I live in the era where I can google the answers to questions my kids ask that I don't know. Because they have a lot of questions. And I gotta keep that spark alive!
8. Encourage them to be the odd duck.
My mom is a fantastically creative person. She sings, plays piano, and composes music. She writes for a living. She always says she's a terrible artist, but she taught me about art in many forms and about appreciating it. I think for much of her childhood she felt like the odd duck out...a dodecahedron peg in a square peg world. So when we would create worlds and languages in our imagination....wanted to play songs of our own instead of practice our piano lesson...spend hours doing any number of odd duck things...she understood. And knew that it would serve us well later in life even if most of the world didn't "get" it.
9. Listen to the "big" problems in your child's life.
Adults tend to minimize kids' intelligence and problems. I don't get that. I think most of the problems we have with kids could be worked out by simply treating them as a real person. When you acknowledge a child is smart and let them know their issue is worth listening to, that goes a long, long way to working things out. I was a pretty care free kid until I went to middle school. Then my friends started this once a month cycle of fighting and making up. I would get so upset that so-and-so and so-and-so weren't talking to each other anymore and come home and just pour it all out on my mom. She would listen. Treat it as a real problem. And gave me a little advice, too. But mostly she just listened. When I had broken heart as a teenager, she would drive me around town and let me cry it out or take me on a walk to work out the anger. Not that I would always let her...but I always knew she was there if I wanted to talk, walk, or drive it out.
10. Walk out your faith in front of them.
This by far is the most important. And the most difficult. There are many times when the day far outlasts my patience as a parent. (I had one of those days yesterday, in fact!) And I grunt out the words to "Jesus Loves Me" at bedtime and I have to silently confess before I pray with my children. But if a negative and grumpy spirit starts ruling the whole day, week, month...it usually means I've neglected my relationship with God. I haven't been reading my Bible regularly. I've neglected to pray. I've let the to-do's and temporary circumstances take ground where worship and a correct perspective used to be. I'm pretty sure every Christian mom struggles in this. ( If you don't, PLEASE share your wisdom!) But I know I will keep fighting to keep my faith first and growing. I will intentionally teach my kids about Jesus, God, and the Bible. We may not do a family devotional each evening, but we read the Children's Bible and answer the questions at the end of the story. We make God an everyday part of our conversation. And that's certainly important- my parents did similar things with me. But there's something about a true and deep relationship with Christ that can't be explained or taught in a book. Some of my most treasured memories of my mother are of times when I really wasn't supposed to be there. I was the early bird of my siblings, and countless mornings I would find my mom sitting, looking out the window, praying, and reveling in the early quiet of the day. Two things were always with her- an open Bible and a steaming cup of coffee. So many nights I went to sleep to the sound of Mom playing the piano and singing...or on those summer nights when the windows were open it was Mom playing her flute on the porch. In those moments I knew, surely, that God was more than stories in a book. He was something worthy of my mother's beautiful worship and devotion.
Every parent falls short of perfection, whether we repeat the mistakes of our own parents or blaze a trail of mistakes all our own. But if I get one thing right, I hope it's living a life of worship that speaks louder than any words I could impart to my kids. With every passing year I realize more just how precious a gift that was from my Mom...how beautiful and how rare. I love you, Momma. Happy Mother's Day and thank you for being my Mom!
Let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, since as members of one body you were called to peace. And be thankful. Let the message of Christ dwell among you richly as you teach and admonish one another with all wisdom through psalms, hymns, and songs from the Spirit, singing to God with gratitude in your hearts. And whatever you do, whether in word or deed, do it all in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through him. (Colossians 3:15-17)
1. Support and love their Dad.
I know that this may be a different ballgame if you are divorced or separated from the father of one or all of your kids. Same goes if you are remarried, single, or working through a difficult marriage issue. It puts more of a "support the dad as much as is healthy for everyone" spin on it. But if you are married to the father of your kids, let them hear good things about him come from your mouth. If you are verbally tearing down your husband in front of your kids when he's there (or not there), what kind of message does that send? If they don't see you welcome him home...give him hugs and kisses...you get the idea. I was outwardly mortified as a teenager when my parents would walk around our neighborhood in the evenings HOLDING. HANDS. Ug! But inwardly, I was so glad that our family and my parents' love was secure. And my mom would always do things like be the first line of defense on the phone when dad was on call for work, or support his hobbies like running or biking even when she'd had a long day and probably wanted to run away herself.
2. Let them see you in roles other than Mom.
When I was little, my Mom did not work outside the home. But as I got a little older, I saw her do things like host an after school Bible club at our house, do office work for my dad's medical office, work as the Worship Coordinator for our church, cover local events and write articles for local newspapers, and eventually she went back to school to finish her college degree. Seeing her as volunteer, employee, and student gave me insight that my mom was a valuable person even outside our home. I saw I had a lot of options for what I could do with my own future. As a mom, I have had seasons where I worked full time, part-time, and have stayed at home. All have had their unique challenges and rewards, and I have not felt that one was any "better" than the other. I hope that my daughter and my sons realize that God may give them different seasons of work outside the home and inside the home. Listening to His timing and providing for their families' needs the best way they can in that season is the more important thing.
3. Teach them independence intentionally.
My mom has always been a good teacher. She wanted to make sure that her children were prepared for life on their own. We had chores. Lots of chores. Every summer morning there was a list of chores for each of us on the kitchen table from cleaning toilets to cleaning our rooms to trimming those infernal bushes every summer. And the chores had to be done before Mom came home from work. Or else. When you began high school in our house, the laundering of your own clothes became your responsibility. Mom also taught us about money. Saving, tithing, spending. I had my own checking account at an early age. She taught us to cook as we helped to cook. Her babies would not enter the adult world without the skills to take care of themselves.
4. Reveal to them the joy of simple things.
Some of my favorite memories of childhood were picking violets and making dandelion chains...watching the clouds...taking walks...having a picnic...enjoying the free awesome stuff that God has given us. Yes, my kids like their TV time and video games...but we take a lot of time to enjoy the simple things, too.
5. Be an active participant in the things you do with your kids.
When we went to the pond every summer, Mom jumped in, too. She loves to swim. When we went to the roller rink, Mom skated- backwards! She loves to skate. We'd dance around the living room to the radio and Mom would join in and show us dances that she did as a kid. She likes her toes in the dirt on a warm day. And recently she braved the trampoline with my kids. She rarely was the mom that sat and watched her kids have fun. She was a part of the fun. Let me never be too grown up to join in the fun!
6. It's okay for moms to apologize to their children.
News flash: Moms make mistakes. I've made plenty. But I distinctly remember times that my Mom apologized to me. Usually when she lost her temper. She didn't release me from responsibility or punishment if I had done something wrong (also usually the case), but her apologies taught me that saying things in anger is not ok and that moms are, in fact, human.
7. Model a love of learning.
Being a nerdy family, there were always plenty of books around the house and trips to the library. There were family vacations where we took historical tours of Abraham Lincoln's past or explored Mammoth Caves. It is not unusual for both my parents to be found reading side by side. My siblings and I always did well in school, but our parents sparked in us a love of learning beyond the walls of formal education. We are all know-it-alls and we kind of love that. I am just thankful that I live in the era where I can google the answers to questions my kids ask that I don't know. Because they have a lot of questions. And I gotta keep that spark alive!
8. Encourage them to be the odd duck.
My mom is a fantastically creative person. She sings, plays piano, and composes music. She writes for a living. She always says she's a terrible artist, but she taught me about art in many forms and about appreciating it. I think for much of her childhood she felt like the odd duck out...a dodecahedron peg in a square peg world. So when we would create worlds and languages in our imagination....wanted to play songs of our own instead of practice our piano lesson...spend hours doing any number of odd duck things...she understood. And knew that it would serve us well later in life even if most of the world didn't "get" it.
9. Listen to the "big" problems in your child's life.
Adults tend to minimize kids' intelligence and problems. I don't get that. I think most of the problems we have with kids could be worked out by simply treating them as a real person. When you acknowledge a child is smart and let them know their issue is worth listening to, that goes a long, long way to working things out. I was a pretty care free kid until I went to middle school. Then my friends started this once a month cycle of fighting and making up. I would get so upset that so-and-so and so-and-so weren't talking to each other anymore and come home and just pour it all out on my mom. She would listen. Treat it as a real problem. And gave me a little advice, too. But mostly she just listened. When I had broken heart as a teenager, she would drive me around town and let me cry it out or take me on a walk to work out the anger. Not that I would always let her...but I always knew she was there if I wanted to talk, walk, or drive it out.
10. Walk out your faith in front of them.
This by far is the most important. And the most difficult. There are many times when the day far outlasts my patience as a parent. (I had one of those days yesterday, in fact!) And I grunt out the words to "Jesus Loves Me" at bedtime and I have to silently confess before I pray with my children. But if a negative and grumpy spirit starts ruling the whole day, week, month...it usually means I've neglected my relationship with God. I haven't been reading my Bible regularly. I've neglected to pray. I've let the to-do's and temporary circumstances take ground where worship and a correct perspective used to be. I'm pretty sure every Christian mom struggles in this. ( If you don't, PLEASE share your wisdom!) But I know I will keep fighting to keep my faith first and growing. I will intentionally teach my kids about Jesus, God, and the Bible. We may not do a family devotional each evening, but we read the Children's Bible and answer the questions at the end of the story. We make God an everyday part of our conversation. And that's certainly important- my parents did similar things with me. But there's something about a true and deep relationship with Christ that can't be explained or taught in a book. Some of my most treasured memories of my mother are of times when I really wasn't supposed to be there. I was the early bird of my siblings, and countless mornings I would find my mom sitting, looking out the window, praying, and reveling in the early quiet of the day. Two things were always with her- an open Bible and a steaming cup of coffee. So many nights I went to sleep to the sound of Mom playing the piano and singing...or on those summer nights when the windows were open it was Mom playing her flute on the porch. In those moments I knew, surely, that God was more than stories in a book. He was something worthy of my mother's beautiful worship and devotion.
Every parent falls short of perfection, whether we repeat the mistakes of our own parents or blaze a trail of mistakes all our own. But if I get one thing right, I hope it's living a life of worship that speaks louder than any words I could impart to my kids. With every passing year I realize more just how precious a gift that was from my Mom...how beautiful and how rare. I love you, Momma. Happy Mother's Day and thank you for being my Mom!
Let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, since as members of one body you were called to peace. And be thankful. Let the message of Christ dwell among you richly as you teach and admonish one another with all wisdom through psalms, hymns, and songs from the Spirit, singing to God with gratitude in your hearts. And whatever you do, whether in word or deed, do it all in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through him. (Colossians 3:15-17)
Tuesday, April 30, 2013
Comfort Zone
I like being comfortable. A few weeks ago my husband and I were cruising the aisles of Big Lots (this is how we roll), and happened upon some memory foam pillows. Name brand! $12 each! Well our current pillows had pretty much had it...so we took a chance. And every night since that fateful day, we've been sighing with satisfaction as we hit the hay. These things are AWESOME! Comfy bed....comfy jammies...comfy pillow...it's a good way to end a day. I've been waking up right before the alarm, well rested. The pillow may not be 100% responsible, but I think it's been a huge factor. (Did I mention it was $12???)
We may not live in the nicest home or drive the nicest cars, but we have a home and two cars in a quieter neighborhood by a school. Frank has a good job. We have plenty to wear and plenty to eat. We have three healthy, smart and beautiful children. We have a dog...a cat...two guinea pigs. We even have some luxuries, like our stash of musical instruments and more than 100 channels at the press of the remote button. We have fantastic families and friends and we're starting to realize how wonderful our new church family is. We are blessed. We live a comfortable life. And there are many around us who do the same.
However, just a few minutes away, there's an elementary school where almost 90 per cent of the kids participate in the free lunch program. Yes, 89.4% to be exact during the 2011-2012 school year. The most recent census says that 19% of the people in my county live below the poverty line, but the poverty rate among children is over 25%. According to the CASA website, there are over 300 children in my county in foster care on any given day. Recently, there has been over 300 inmates in our county jail, not to mention the hundreds in the federal penitentiary in our community and the three state correctional facilities less than an hour's drive from here. I couldn't find statistics on the poverty rate for the elderly in my county, and that is both interesting and sad to me. Add in many living in facilities to care for mental health, physical health, juvenile detention centers, group homes, homeless shelters, addiction treatment centers....
Why all the depressing in-your-face stats? Well, besides proving that I indeed am related to my economist brother, a plain fact emerges. There are many that are not comfortable. In MY county. In yours. In my country and yours. And millions around the world living in circumstances we cannot imagine. This is overwhelming. We know this. The collective Church and local churches here do some amazing things to try to minister to people and meet their needs. Locally and globally. I don't want to downplay that. And yet, there seems to be a frustrating lack of change as we see generation after generation in physical, emotional, and spiritual poverty.
Here's the truth. I don't know the answers to these big needs. I have a few clues and hunches based on my work with non-profits, churches, schools, and workforce development in the last 12 odd years. But this is what I read:
Then the King will say to those on his right, ‘Come, you who are blessed by my Father; take your inheritance, the kingdom prepared for you since the creation of the world. For I was hungry and you gave me something to eat, I was thirsty and you gave me something to drink, I was a stranger and you invited me in, I needed clothes and you clothed me, I was sick and you looked after me, I was in prison and you came to visit me.’ “Then the righteous will answer him, ‘Lord, when did we see you hungry and feed you, or thirsty and give you something to drink? When did we see you a stranger and invite you in, or needing clothes and clothe you? When did we see you sick or in prison and go to visit you?’ “The King will reply, ‘Truly I tell you, whatever you did for one of the least of these brothers and sisters of mine, you did for me.’ (Matthew 25:34-40)
Religion that God our Father accepts as pure and faultless is this: to look after orphans and widows in their distress and to keep oneself from being polluted by the world.(James 1:27)
I see in these verses an active relationship with those who are the most vulnerable and have the most need. I don't see a check being written with a quick photo op. (Believe me, those working in non-profits see this a lot.) Yes, giving to the church you attend is important. Giving to charities we love is good. Be obedient to God and do that, please! But I think we've missed a crucial element in Christianity if we fail to get to know those in need. How do we even know WHAT they need unless we're willing to get to know them? Did Jesus give his disciples a big fat purse of silver and tell them good luck in life? Did hey say to Mary and Martha, "So sorry your brother died; here's a pamphlet on grief and we hope to see you at church next Sunday!" Maybe this is a little harsh. There's a lot of Christians who get it. But I think there's still many who don't. Jesus got to know those in need. He died for each and every single one of us. We are valuable enough for him to have a personal relationship with us. So why is it so difficult for us to build relationships with "others"? Why do we always say that doing this type of serving is out of our comfort zone? I feel like we treat it like it's only for certain brave and bold Christians with a certain skill set or spiritual gift. Shouldn't it be the norm for a Christian? Do people with great need remind us a little too much that we have great needs that only God can fufill?
We had a gal at church last Sunday share about her experience going on mission trips to Nicaragua (Thanks, Kathy, for allowing me to share your story!!). She said that she was a happy wife, mom, volunteer, and church member who was actively involved. She said yes to going on a trip to Nicaragua and was unsure if God could even use her in a strange and scary capacity like that. But she said that instead of it being outside her comfort zone...she felt like she had, for the first time in her whole life, FOUND her comfort zone. She could be used by God to help those in desperate need and she loved that! This just resonated with me. What is my true comfort zone? What have I accepted as my comfort zone that might be a poor substitute for my real comfort zone in Christ? Who is God placing in my path that I can get to know and meet his or her needs?
So I end with lots of questions. But definitely questions worth working through. There is not a person on this earth in all of time that Jesus wasn't willing to give his life for. While I usually find it easy to love those in the margins of society, I still tend to get hung up on who is "worthy" of my time, money, and my help. Everyone is worthy. Every one. I just need to stay off my high horse and cling desperately to God in order to clearly see my true comfort zone.
We may not live in the nicest home or drive the nicest cars, but we have a home and two cars in a quieter neighborhood by a school. Frank has a good job. We have plenty to wear and plenty to eat. We have three healthy, smart and beautiful children. We have a dog...a cat...two guinea pigs. We even have some luxuries, like our stash of musical instruments and more than 100 channels at the press of the remote button. We have fantastic families and friends and we're starting to realize how wonderful our new church family is. We are blessed. We live a comfortable life. And there are many around us who do the same.
However, just a few minutes away, there's an elementary school where almost 90 per cent of the kids participate in the free lunch program. Yes, 89.4% to be exact during the 2011-2012 school year. The most recent census says that 19% of the people in my county live below the poverty line, but the poverty rate among children is over 25%. According to the CASA website, there are over 300 children in my county in foster care on any given day. Recently, there has been over 300 inmates in our county jail, not to mention the hundreds in the federal penitentiary in our community and the three state correctional facilities less than an hour's drive from here. I couldn't find statistics on the poverty rate for the elderly in my county, and that is both interesting and sad to me. Add in many living in facilities to care for mental health, physical health, juvenile detention centers, group homes, homeless shelters, addiction treatment centers....
Why all the depressing in-your-face stats? Well, besides proving that I indeed am related to my economist brother, a plain fact emerges. There are many that are not comfortable. In MY county. In yours. In my country and yours. And millions around the world living in circumstances we cannot imagine. This is overwhelming. We know this. The collective Church and local churches here do some amazing things to try to minister to people and meet their needs. Locally and globally. I don't want to downplay that. And yet, there seems to be a frustrating lack of change as we see generation after generation in physical, emotional, and spiritual poverty.
Here's the truth. I don't know the answers to these big needs. I have a few clues and hunches based on my work with non-profits, churches, schools, and workforce development in the last 12 odd years. But this is what I read:
Then the King will say to those on his right, ‘Come, you who are blessed by my Father; take your inheritance, the kingdom prepared for you since the creation of the world. For I was hungry and you gave me something to eat, I was thirsty and you gave me something to drink, I was a stranger and you invited me in, I needed clothes and you clothed me, I was sick and you looked after me, I was in prison and you came to visit me.’ “Then the righteous will answer him, ‘Lord, when did we see you hungry and feed you, or thirsty and give you something to drink? When did we see you a stranger and invite you in, or needing clothes and clothe you? When did we see you sick or in prison and go to visit you?’ “The King will reply, ‘Truly I tell you, whatever you did for one of the least of these brothers and sisters of mine, you did for me.’ (Matthew 25:34-40)
Religion that God our Father accepts as pure and faultless is this: to look after orphans and widows in their distress and to keep oneself from being polluted by the world.(James 1:27)
I see in these verses an active relationship with those who are the most vulnerable and have the most need. I don't see a check being written with a quick photo op. (Believe me, those working in non-profits see this a lot.) Yes, giving to the church you attend is important. Giving to charities we love is good. Be obedient to God and do that, please! But I think we've missed a crucial element in Christianity if we fail to get to know those in need. How do we even know WHAT they need unless we're willing to get to know them? Did Jesus give his disciples a big fat purse of silver and tell them good luck in life? Did hey say to Mary and Martha, "So sorry your brother died; here's a pamphlet on grief and we hope to see you at church next Sunday!" Maybe this is a little harsh. There's a lot of Christians who get it. But I think there's still many who don't. Jesus got to know those in need. He died for each and every single one of us. We are valuable enough for him to have a personal relationship with us. So why is it so difficult for us to build relationships with "others"? Why do we always say that doing this type of serving is out of our comfort zone? I feel like we treat it like it's only for certain brave and bold Christians with a certain skill set or spiritual gift. Shouldn't it be the norm for a Christian? Do people with great need remind us a little too much that we have great needs that only God can fufill?
We had a gal at church last Sunday share about her experience going on mission trips to Nicaragua (Thanks, Kathy, for allowing me to share your story!!). She said that she was a happy wife, mom, volunteer, and church member who was actively involved. She said yes to going on a trip to Nicaragua and was unsure if God could even use her in a strange and scary capacity like that. But she said that instead of it being outside her comfort zone...she felt like she had, for the first time in her whole life, FOUND her comfort zone. She could be used by God to help those in desperate need and she loved that! This just resonated with me. What is my true comfort zone? What have I accepted as my comfort zone that might be a poor substitute for my real comfort zone in Christ? Who is God placing in my path that I can get to know and meet his or her needs?
So I end with lots of questions. But definitely questions worth working through. There is not a person on this earth in all of time that Jesus wasn't willing to give his life for. While I usually find it easy to love those in the margins of society, I still tend to get hung up on who is "worthy" of my time, money, and my help. Everyone is worthy. Every one. I just need to stay off my high horse and cling desperately to God in order to clearly see my true comfort zone.
Wednesday, April 24, 2013
Thanks, God, for Cat Pee
Ok, so the last post was a little in depth. Serious. The short version is we need to consciously name the things for which we are thankful. They are all gifts from God to us. It helps put things in perspective about how good God is to us. Always. Here's how that process went for me one day last week:
As usual, I was doing some laundry. I had taken a load of laundry out of the dryer which I thought was dry, but noticed some of it was a little damp. I left the damp stuff in the dryer to re-dry and put the dry clothes in a basket when I started to notice a particular smell. A smell I know. A smell of cat urine. Well, the litter box is next to the dryer, so in vain I hoped that kitty just had a particularly smelly day.
Nope. Upon further investigation...he had peed. IN. THE. DRYER. On CLEAN clothes!?! That's about a 12 on the 1 to 10 disgust-o-meter. And so I started the clean up process. I swore under my breath. Grumble, grumble. General nastiness radiated from me. Put the clothes back in the washer. Grumble. Sit and figure out just how I am supposed to clean and sanitize the inside of my dryer. Grumble. Gag. Clean dryer. Bleach the heck out of the clothes. Glare at cat. Gag. Grumble. Stomp upstairs and check on kid happily playing. Grumble. Jump into shower to attempt to wash the smell from memory.
As I was standing under near boiling water, I finally took a deep breath. Wasn't I supposed to be thankful and content in all situations? I sighed and looked up at the bathroom ceiling that needs a paint job. "God, WHAT in the world is there to be thankful about in this????"
So I grudgingly starting making a mental list.
1. I have a dryer that works and dries our clothes.
2. We have clothes.
3. I had a good supply of detergent and bleach and didn't have to make an extra trip to the store on a rainy day.
4. It was a load of mostly towels, socks, and t-shirts that COULD be bleached.
5. Josh the peeing cat was a birthday present to Frank and the cat makes him happy.
6. We had the money to get Josh and rescue him from the humane society.
7. I have a sensitive nose and caught this before my kids went to school smelling like cat pee.
8. At least I didn't close the dryer with the cat in it.
9. At least it wasn't the dog.
10. At least is wasn't a kid.
At this point I was laughing out loud in the shower and the list went unfinished. And I marveled that instead of grumbling, I was now giggling and realizing just how ridiculous the whole thing was and how fortunate we are to even be in the position to have this happen! First world problem.
I know that all situations are not this easy to laugh at. Oh, believe me. I know. But there is always something to thank God for. If nothing else amid your dark days, you are reading this. Alive and breathing. In your own language. On a device that was merely science fiction a few decades ago.
Rejoice always, pray continually, give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus. (I Thessalonians 5:16-18)
So...um...thanks, God, for cat pee.
As usual, I was doing some laundry. I had taken a load of laundry out of the dryer which I thought was dry, but noticed some of it was a little damp. I left the damp stuff in the dryer to re-dry and put the dry clothes in a basket when I started to notice a particular smell. A smell I know. A smell of cat urine. Well, the litter box is next to the dryer, so in vain I hoped that kitty just had a particularly smelly day.
Nope. Upon further investigation...he had peed. IN. THE. DRYER. On CLEAN clothes!?! That's about a 12 on the 1 to 10 disgust-o-meter. And so I started the clean up process. I swore under my breath. Grumble, grumble. General nastiness radiated from me. Put the clothes back in the washer. Grumble. Sit and figure out just how I am supposed to clean and sanitize the inside of my dryer. Grumble. Gag. Clean dryer. Bleach the heck out of the clothes. Glare at cat. Gag. Grumble. Stomp upstairs and check on kid happily playing. Grumble. Jump into shower to attempt to wash the smell from memory.
As I was standing under near boiling water, I finally took a deep breath. Wasn't I supposed to be thankful and content in all situations? I sighed and looked up at the bathroom ceiling that needs a paint job. "God, WHAT in the world is there to be thankful about in this????"
So I grudgingly starting making a mental list.
1. I have a dryer that works and dries our clothes.
2. We have clothes.
3. I had a good supply of detergent and bleach and didn't have to make an extra trip to the store on a rainy day.
4. It was a load of mostly towels, socks, and t-shirts that COULD be bleached.
5. Josh the peeing cat was a birthday present to Frank and the cat makes him happy.
6. We had the money to get Josh and rescue him from the humane society.
7. I have a sensitive nose and caught this before my kids went to school smelling like cat pee.
8. At least I didn't close the dryer with the cat in it.
9. At least it wasn't the dog.
10. At least is wasn't a kid.
At this point I was laughing out loud in the shower and the list went unfinished. And I marveled that instead of grumbling, I was now giggling and realizing just how ridiculous the whole thing was and how fortunate we are to even be in the position to have this happen! First world problem.
I know that all situations are not this easy to laugh at. Oh, believe me. I know. But there is always something to thank God for. If nothing else amid your dark days, you are reading this. Alive and breathing. In your own language. On a device that was merely science fiction a few decades ago.
Rejoice always, pray continually, give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus. (I Thessalonians 5:16-18)
So...um...thanks, God, for cat pee.
Thursday, April 18, 2013
Naming
One of my own favorite things as a kid, and into college even, was choosing a title for a paper. I love a catchy name. Puns and ridiculousness welcome. I would name very serious paper with a wacky title. I'm sure my professors loved that...
And at this stage of life, many of my friends are having babies. The question is always, "What will the name be?" It's a HUGE decision! You can't name a baby the same thing your friend did, or give them the name of your creepy third grade teacher, or the name of your husband's ex-girlfriend! You can't pick a name that's too popular...you can't pick a name that's too strange...(try finding names that go with Sabelhaus. Abel was out right away.)
Have you ever been called a name that stung long after it was thrown at you? Loser. Fat. Ugly. Worthless. Why do we obsess with names? Why do they hold so much meaning?
For some reason, I've been reading books that address this theme of naming. (Not name it and claim it prosperity theology....no, no, no. Run away.) I'm working through The Genesis Trilogy by Madeline L'Engle and I just finished One Thousand Gifts: Dare to Live Fully Right Where You Are by Ann Voskamp. How I love these women! Both share a beautiful use of the English language. They both tend farms and children and the mind. Well, I'm no farmer. (I do some yard work and love the outdoors.) But I most definitely am a mom and a thinker. There's so many great people in this world I admire, but with these women I find a certain kinship. Like they would understand my brain and heart more than most. And they both find "naming" to be essential to a joyous relationship between God and the people he created.
From Madeleine L'Engle's And It Was Good:
"When Adam named the animals he made them real. My dog is named Timothy and my cat is named Titus. Farmers do not let their children name the animals who are going to be slaughtered or put in the pot. It is not easy to eat a ham you have known as Wilbur or a chicken called Flossy. When we respond to our names, or call someone else by name, it is already the beginning of a community expressing the image of God. To call someone by name is an act of prayer. We may abuse our names, and our prayer, but without names we are not human. And Adam and Eve, no matter what else they were, were human. At first there was nothing but joy, joy in being created, and in worshipping the God who had created them. And wonder: wonder at sunrises and starfish and dolphin and even dandelions....Were Adam and Eve beginning to take the image of God in themselves and loveliness of Eden for granted? Is that why they fell for Satan's temptations? When we take things for granted, then what we have is not enough, and we are rendered vulnerable to the wiles of the tempter."
From Ann Voskamp's One Thousand Gifts:
"Naming is Edenic. I name gifts and go back to the Garden and God in the beginning who first speaks a name and lets what is come into existence. This naming is how the first emptiness of space fills: the naming of light and land and sky. This first man's first task is to name. Adam completes creation with his Maker through the act of naming creatures, releasing the land from chaos, from the teeming, indefinable mass. I am seeing it too... naming offers the gift of recognition. When I name moments-string out laundry and name-pray, thank You, Lord, for bedsheets in billowing winds, for fluff of sparrow landing on line, sun winter warm, and one last leaf still hanging in the orchard- I am Adam and I discover my meaning and God's, and to name is to learn the language of Paradise. This naming work never ends for all the children of Adam. Naming to find an identity, our identity, God's."
Aren't those passages so very, very similar? I picked up these two books a week apart without any knowledge that some of the content would overlap. And I received a strong message that when we "forget" to physically put pen to paper or voice to speech or instrument to song or brush to painting or feet to dance or whatever part of you can express thanks in a tangible way...we choose to ignore God's innumerable blessings. We focus on ourselves. It is blatantly clear that by ourselves, humans are found lacking. We complain and compare. We feed the monsters of bitterness and jealousy. And we simultaneously push away God who is the only way to make us complete. Creativity, worship, gratitude- they all put a right perspective on who we are and how great God is. Ann Voskamp observed how impossible it is to be joyless while you are in the act of giving thanks. So she proposes that we "name" or write down all the gifts God has given us. All of them. If you want to know more, visit her website at http://onethousandgifts.com/. There's much more to the book, and I won't spoil it for you. But I love the simple and practical application of just putting into words what God gives us each day.
Reminds me of the old song,"Count your blessings, name them one by one. Count your many blessings see what God has done." Or "every blessing you pour out I turn back to praise." Or what we're studying in our sermon series right now at church: "Bless the Lord, oh my soul and all that is within me, bless his holy name. Bless the Lord, O my soul, and forget none of his benefits (Psalm 103:1-2)." We sing it at church and read it in the Bible, but do we apply it? Do we really want joy, peace, and to find out that ourselves and our complaints are pretty small potatoes most of the time?
So I attempt to name the things for which I am thankful. I practice being thankful on good days and the not so good. I hung poster board by the back door. I grab a marker when I think of something and pause to write it down. By God's grace we do not receive what we deserve- eternal separation from God. Instead, we receive...
Magnolia petals
Son's giggles
Daughter's crazy dances
Smell of coffee beans
And on...and on...
A good friend put this on facebook the other day. (He wants to credit it to Chris Rice since he was listening to a song of his at the time...but he's a pretty wise man himself.) "Peace comes when we realize: how small we are, how big God is and just how much He really loves us." I think practicing gratitude is the perfect start to this realization process and this path to peace.
And at this stage of life, many of my friends are having babies. The question is always, "What will the name be?" It's a HUGE decision! You can't name a baby the same thing your friend did, or give them the name of your creepy third grade teacher, or the name of your husband's ex-girlfriend! You can't pick a name that's too popular...you can't pick a name that's too strange...(try finding names that go with Sabelhaus. Abel was out right away.)
Have you ever been called a name that stung long after it was thrown at you? Loser. Fat. Ugly. Worthless. Why do we obsess with names? Why do they hold so much meaning?
For some reason, I've been reading books that address this theme of naming. (Not name it and claim it prosperity theology....no, no, no. Run away.) I'm working through The Genesis Trilogy by Madeline L'Engle and I just finished One Thousand Gifts: Dare to Live Fully Right Where You Are by Ann Voskamp. How I love these women! Both share a beautiful use of the English language. They both tend farms and children and the mind. Well, I'm no farmer. (I do some yard work and love the outdoors.) But I most definitely am a mom and a thinker. There's so many great people in this world I admire, but with these women I find a certain kinship. Like they would understand my brain and heart more than most. And they both find "naming" to be essential to a joyous relationship between God and the people he created.
From Madeleine L'Engle's And It Was Good:
"When Adam named the animals he made them real. My dog is named Timothy and my cat is named Titus. Farmers do not let their children name the animals who are going to be slaughtered or put in the pot. It is not easy to eat a ham you have known as Wilbur or a chicken called Flossy. When we respond to our names, or call someone else by name, it is already the beginning of a community expressing the image of God. To call someone by name is an act of prayer. We may abuse our names, and our prayer, but without names we are not human. And Adam and Eve, no matter what else they were, were human. At first there was nothing but joy, joy in being created, and in worshipping the God who had created them. And wonder: wonder at sunrises and starfish and dolphin and even dandelions....Were Adam and Eve beginning to take the image of God in themselves and loveliness of Eden for granted? Is that why they fell for Satan's temptations? When we take things for granted, then what we have is not enough, and we are rendered vulnerable to the wiles of the tempter."
From Ann Voskamp's One Thousand Gifts:
"Naming is Edenic. I name gifts and go back to the Garden and God in the beginning who first speaks a name and lets what is come into existence. This naming is how the first emptiness of space fills: the naming of light and land and sky. This first man's first task is to name. Adam completes creation with his Maker through the act of naming creatures, releasing the land from chaos, from the teeming, indefinable mass. I am seeing it too... naming offers the gift of recognition. When I name moments-string out laundry and name-pray, thank You, Lord, for bedsheets in billowing winds, for fluff of sparrow landing on line, sun winter warm, and one last leaf still hanging in the orchard- I am Adam and I discover my meaning and God's, and to name is to learn the language of Paradise. This naming work never ends for all the children of Adam. Naming to find an identity, our identity, God's."
Aren't those passages so very, very similar? I picked up these two books a week apart without any knowledge that some of the content would overlap. And I received a strong message that when we "forget" to physically put pen to paper or voice to speech or instrument to song or brush to painting or feet to dance or whatever part of you can express thanks in a tangible way...we choose to ignore God's innumerable blessings. We focus on ourselves. It is blatantly clear that by ourselves, humans are found lacking. We complain and compare. We feed the monsters of bitterness and jealousy. And we simultaneously push away God who is the only way to make us complete. Creativity, worship, gratitude- they all put a right perspective on who we are and how great God is. Ann Voskamp observed how impossible it is to be joyless while you are in the act of giving thanks. So she proposes that we "name" or write down all the gifts God has given us. All of them. If you want to know more, visit her website at http://onethousandgifts.com/. There's much more to the book, and I won't spoil it for you. But I love the simple and practical application of just putting into words what God gives us each day.
Reminds me of the old song,"Count your blessings, name them one by one. Count your many blessings see what God has done." Or "every blessing you pour out I turn back to praise." Or what we're studying in our sermon series right now at church: "Bless the Lord, oh my soul and all that is within me, bless his holy name. Bless the Lord, O my soul, and forget none of his benefits (Psalm 103:1-2)." We sing it at church and read it in the Bible, but do we apply it? Do we really want joy, peace, and to find out that ourselves and our complaints are pretty small potatoes most of the time?
So I attempt to name the things for which I am thankful. I practice being thankful on good days and the not so good. I hung poster board by the back door. I grab a marker when I think of something and pause to write it down. By God's grace we do not receive what we deserve- eternal separation from God. Instead, we receive...
Magnolia petals
Son's giggles
Daughter's crazy dances
Smell of coffee beans
And on...and on...
A good friend put this on facebook the other day. (He wants to credit it to Chris Rice since he was listening to a song of his at the time...but he's a pretty wise man himself.) "Peace comes when we realize: how small we are, how big God is and just how much He really loves us." I think practicing gratitude is the perfect start to this realization process and this path to peace.
Wednesday, April 10, 2013
Weak
What do babies, Stephen Hawking, and a bad cup of coffee have in common? (Psssst...look at the title...) Yep. They are weak. Opposite of strong. Yeah, I know. Terrible riddle. But I can't think of a better way to introduce this. And on the onset, we think of those who are frail, tiny, and paralyzed as some of the most helpless in our world. BUT...there's this paradox.
When we were expecting our first bundle of joy, we went to great lengths to prepare for her. Rooms were painted, items were pondered and purchased, cribs were assembled, books were read, and there was a great stir in the circle of people we knew- a tiny helpless little baby forever changed our world. Likewise, what an impact "helpless" people such as Stephen Hawking, Christopher Reeve, and Joni Eareckson Tada have had despite their physical limitations. (And I will drive miles and miles to avoid a weak cup of coffee.) Weakness can be a powerful agent of love, power, and change. Weakness can force a reaction.
For close to two years now...my body has been weak. Just typing that makes my face distort a bit in a grimace. I hate admitting my weakness. I...ahem...am a rather independent person (I'm sure my husband can attest...he probably just rolled his eyes a little.). I hate asking for help. As my body has been fighting this crazy disease, one of the most frustrating things is just the weakness that comes along with it. And just as I think I'm getting strong again and tipping the scales to be heavy on the side of healthy, I've been sinking into weakness yet again.
It's never a good sign when your doctor's office calls you four times in one day. My routine blood tests came back a bit screwy in mid March, and my doctor had me go back for more to see where I was at right now. The results came last week, and most concerning is my liver function. I guess my liver decided to take a vacation but forgot to tell me. Livers are sneaky like that. I guess you can go a long time without obvious symptoms when your liver is unhappy. Who knew? The best guess right now is that it's a side effect from one of the medications I take. So that explains why I've been feeling run down even though I'm supposed to be feeling pretty good right now. So I was directed to stop taking my meds and did more blood work which came back a little better and now I check in with docs and do more tests and try to figure out what the best course of action is from here. Because I'm sick because of the meds and yet sick without them...so, time to figure that one out.
Honestly, when I was really sick last year, I was worried and scared, but so weak I just had to turn it over to God because I really couldn't do much else. Last week, however, I was frightened and angry. Really? Freak side effect equals possible damage to my liver? Just when things were kind of normal? So I...cleaned. And hung up pictures. And took my kids hiking. (And as a result spent a day on the couch feeling crappy.) But I COULD, at least, and I suppose it's a more positive response than curling up in a ball. And I talked with God a LOT. And I asked my family to pray. But it's difficult for me to share this kind of thing with the world at large. I make all kinds of justifications....I don't want others to worry unnecessarily. I don't want people to feel sorry for me. I don't want my situation to take away from others in more dire need. Explaining the whole thing takes too long. I can still do a lot of "normal" stuff. And so forth. But a lot of times, I just don't want others to know my weakness. I look just fine on the outside. So move along, people...nothing to see here!
It's been hard for me to ask publicly for healing or prayer. I seriously have an aversion to going to the alter at church to pray and I'm sure that's a "whole nuther ball of wax" as one of my former teachers would say...But I pray personally for healing. And if I go into lifelong remission (no real "cure" to ulcerative colitis) due to medical care or miraculous healing from God, I will give all credit to Him. And if I struggle with this disease for the rest of my physical life, in my heart of hearts, I will humbly accept that God has a far bigger plan and more glory will go to Him than if I had a perfectly healthy body. I just keep coming back to this. Time after time (Cue Cyndi Lauper):
Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it (thorn in the flesh) away from me. But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong. (2 Corinthians 12:8-10)
Paradox. When I am weak, then I am strong. So let this be my first boast: I am weak right now. But my God...He is the very definition of strength and power. I'm not delighting in my weakness quite yet...but I will continue to praise God for the things I'm learning through being weak. And I will praise Him for the countless blessings in my life that far surpass the one obstacle of a not-so-healthy physical body.
I have an ultrasound to check out my liver later this week. Also about a million and one blood tests that I should get results for soon. I hope my liver is happily back to work and things keep improving (Really, I've been feeling good the last couple days!), so your prayers for healing are appreciated. But I ask that you pray more that God's power is made perfect in me...and in you...through our weaknesses.
When we were expecting our first bundle of joy, we went to great lengths to prepare for her. Rooms were painted, items were pondered and purchased, cribs were assembled, books were read, and there was a great stir in the circle of people we knew- a tiny helpless little baby forever changed our world. Likewise, what an impact "helpless" people such as Stephen Hawking, Christopher Reeve, and Joni Eareckson Tada have had despite their physical limitations. (And I will drive miles and miles to avoid a weak cup of coffee.) Weakness can be a powerful agent of love, power, and change. Weakness can force a reaction.
For close to two years now...my body has been weak. Just typing that makes my face distort a bit in a grimace. I hate admitting my weakness. I...ahem...am a rather independent person (I'm sure my husband can attest...he probably just rolled his eyes a little.). I hate asking for help. As my body has been fighting this crazy disease, one of the most frustrating things is just the weakness that comes along with it. And just as I think I'm getting strong again and tipping the scales to be heavy on the side of healthy, I've been sinking into weakness yet again.
It's never a good sign when your doctor's office calls you four times in one day. My routine blood tests came back a bit screwy in mid March, and my doctor had me go back for more to see where I was at right now. The results came last week, and most concerning is my liver function. I guess my liver decided to take a vacation but forgot to tell me. Livers are sneaky like that. I guess you can go a long time without obvious symptoms when your liver is unhappy. Who knew? The best guess right now is that it's a side effect from one of the medications I take. So that explains why I've been feeling run down even though I'm supposed to be feeling pretty good right now. So I was directed to stop taking my meds and did more blood work which came back a little better and now I check in with docs and do more tests and try to figure out what the best course of action is from here. Because I'm sick because of the meds and yet sick without them...so, time to figure that one out.
Honestly, when I was really sick last year, I was worried and scared, but so weak I just had to turn it over to God because I really couldn't do much else. Last week, however, I was frightened and angry. Really? Freak side effect equals possible damage to my liver? Just when things were kind of normal? So I...cleaned. And hung up pictures. And took my kids hiking. (And as a result spent a day on the couch feeling crappy.) But I COULD, at least, and I suppose it's a more positive response than curling up in a ball. And I talked with God a LOT. And I asked my family to pray. But it's difficult for me to share this kind of thing with the world at large. I make all kinds of justifications....I don't want others to worry unnecessarily. I don't want people to feel sorry for me. I don't want my situation to take away from others in more dire need. Explaining the whole thing takes too long. I can still do a lot of "normal" stuff. And so forth. But a lot of times, I just don't want others to know my weakness. I look just fine on the outside. So move along, people...nothing to see here!
It's been hard for me to ask publicly for healing or prayer. I seriously have an aversion to going to the alter at church to pray and I'm sure that's a "whole nuther ball of wax" as one of my former teachers would say...But I pray personally for healing. And if I go into lifelong remission (no real "cure" to ulcerative colitis) due to medical care or miraculous healing from God, I will give all credit to Him. And if I struggle with this disease for the rest of my physical life, in my heart of hearts, I will humbly accept that God has a far bigger plan and more glory will go to Him than if I had a perfectly healthy body. I just keep coming back to this. Time after time (Cue Cyndi Lauper):
Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it (thorn in the flesh) away from me. But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong. (2 Corinthians 12:8-10)
Paradox. When I am weak, then I am strong. So let this be my first boast: I am weak right now. But my God...He is the very definition of strength and power. I'm not delighting in my weakness quite yet...but I will continue to praise God for the things I'm learning through being weak. And I will praise Him for the countless blessings in my life that far surpass the one obstacle of a not-so-healthy physical body.
I have an ultrasound to check out my liver later this week. Also about a million and one blood tests that I should get results for soon. I hope my liver is happily back to work and things keep improving (Really, I've been feeling good the last couple days!), so your prayers for healing are appreciated. But I ask that you pray more that God's power is made perfect in me...and in you...through our weaknesses.
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